Big Brother 13 is such a joke! :P

WOW.. I am the biggest fool… excuse me for my foolishness..

The Cubs and White Sox are playing for the BP Cup this weekend. And seeing as the combined records of these teams this season are pretty much as unappealing as the oil companies track records themselves, you could not have two more deserving teams going head to head to earn the honor of being king of the oil spill. And before you say that the teams had no choice and that they must honor their contracts with BP, that is not the case at all. They could have withdrawn their participation and refuse to play in the name of BP. Sure, it would have been costly, but let’s be honest, both of these teams, BP and MLB could afford it. BP themselves could have said that this isn’t right under these circumstances. But since money talks they chose not to, and who cares about our environment and the fact that we’re ruining the only planet we have with every passing moment. Let’s just watch some baseball and forget about it. Personally, I would rather take a swim in the oily ocean to make a point than watch these teams play each other for the BP Cup. So that makes it even easier for me to boycott this series.

Sure, you can say that no matter if they play or not, it won’t make a difference and it won’t stop the oil spill. And that may be the case, but at the same time it doesn’t make it right either, does it? How about instead of playing these games, the teams go down to the gulf and help with the cleanup? More realistically, how about small things like fans bring signs to the games showing their disgust for this travesty? But unfortunately we haven’t heard a peep from anybody, its like the oil spill never happened if you’re the Cubs, White Sox, BP or the fans. How about we all finally make a statement instead of wearing blinders on our eyes? How about we finally stop these rich corporations from running our entire lives? It may sound impossible but its not, because together at this moment, we have the perfect opportunity to let our voices be heard. Together we have the power to make a difference, especially in this day and age with the technology we possess. And they will listen to us, because they have no choice. So I urge you that if you’re going to any of these games, bring a sign, wear a t-shirt, whatever. Show them that you’re aware of what’s going on. Anything is better than acting like blind sheep being led to the slaughter.

So far, the silence from the players, fans and MLB is deafening, but I refuse to bend over and take it. Instead I choose to speak my mind and at least make people think if nothing else. Just because you ignore something, that doesn’t mean that it isn’t happening. Have we all completely stopped caring about this planet? Have we gotten so greedy and desensitized that we have no problem supporting two teams who could actually use their stature to make a statement, rather than bury their heads in the sand in the name of the almighty dollar and our entertainment? And you can also bury your head if you want, but I choose to take a stand.

I can’t actually go out and make you do any of these things, but what I can do is state my opinions and make you think. I’m not writing this to get attention, I have no vested interest in this, I’m just following my heart and doing what I feel is right. I feel that its my duty to let my voice be heard and I suggest you do the same. Don’t underestimate the power of words, they have been known to change the world. Some may not like what I have to say and I could care less about that. They can state their own opinions like I have and let others decide on their own. So love me or hate me or anything in between, but this is not about me at all. I just want people to stop acting like they don’t know any better, because I know that you do, its just time to get off your ass and stop playing it safe and being lazy. At least please think for yourself and make your own decisions, and do what you feel is right for God’s sake. If not now, when?

You think I wouldn’t rather be writing about the Blackhawks winning their first Stanley Cup in my lifetime? About how seeing Jeremy Roenick cry on NBC took me back to when I was a baby rooting for a team that I couldn’t even watch their home games on TV? When just a few years ago it felt like my childhood team would be down in the dumps my entire life and a long time after that. If my dad who raised me to be a sports fan with the Blackhawks were alive today, he wouldn’t believe his eyes either. It all still feels like it didn’t really happen, like its just a dream in the back of my mind which I conjured up myself to cope with an entire lifetime of heartbreak. The heartbreak finally ended, and me and my dads life long dream finally did come true! But no, instead I’m stuck writing about two mediocre teams playing for some made up cup and bragging rights. A lot of people will make the Toyota sign the issue, but its not the issue, its the distraction..

Anyway, congratulations to the Blackhawks! And also give yourselves a round of applause for getting through this article. I know its a downer, but I couldn’t just sit around and pretend oil hasn’t been gushing into our ocean at insane amounts for almost 2 months now while we pretend to enjoy some horrible baseball. No matter what you decide to do, enjoy the rest of your weekend!

I think that it would be nice to post something positive after such a long absence and a last post that was so depressing. I really cant focus on a single thought of theme as usual so I’ll just pop in here and add something in between my usual work. Ready to be bored? I hope so… ;)

What would any sane person have to say at 3 in the morning anyway? But if you’re following me, I don’t think that you’re looking for sane. I seem to be learning an overwhelming amount about life in such a short period of time, I’m kind of struggling about how to process it, and I just spend most nights thinking too much to even want to sleep. For the most part its all positive, I have given in and said the more the merrier. Obviously its meant to be this way and at times I wonder if this really isn’t all a dream and then I realize that its not…

The things that I never really liked to do, I always dreaded doing and I would wonder how I would get through my day, or my task, whatever. But I’ve gotten so many positive things in life this year that my attitude has completely changed. The things I dreaded, I don’t even care that I’m doing them anymore. I try to make the best of the moment and actually, its a good thing because it keeps me grounded in reality. Because I have a weird feeling that if it wasn’t for my job and my mundane tasks, I would just lay down and float away because no matter what’s going on, I’m just happy lately. And if feels like no matter what happens, I can get through it because I have so many awesome people surrounding me. After years of worrying, these days I’m just enjoying life, smiling and doing what I have to do to move forward, stay positive and make other people smile! :)

There will be moments in your life where you will feel the intense despair. It doesn’t matter how happy you are in your life, you will have days where you feel as if nothing is clicking, and everyone is against you. But there comes a certain point in your life where you realize that these are the moments which need to be taken advantage of. These are moments in your life meant to test your strength and your will towards making a better tomorrow, a brighter future, a new beginning for yourself and for others. You must dig deep into your soul and find something positive to take out of your desperate situation. Because those days are not a curse, they’re here to inspire us, they’re a gift to us all. They are there to remind us of our place in this life.

The universe is a cold dark place and we need to remember that we are just guests on this rock which is mercifully keeping us alive. If we all for one moment collectively, took a step back and thought about how lucky we are to have what we have right there in front of us, to even be alive and breathing, we would be doing nothing else except kissing the ground and counting our lucky stars. Luckily we are blessed with an endless supply of distractions, which are conveniently placed here to make our short stay on this lightning quick ride seem sane and orderly. When in fact, if you think about it, and put it in perspective, its absolutely chaotic. Theres enough information there to drive us all completely insane, faster than the speed of light..

So pick your distraction, pick your poison, do what you have to do to forget the basic fact that today we are here, and tomorrow we will be gone. And its what we leave behind for future generations, future lives, future civilizations that will ultimately define our worth in this society at this very moment. Even if it is a society which vastly over rates itself on a daily basis, never stopping to think for a second that everything around us, good or bad is a gift. Its a gift that makes us who we are, dictates what we do and molds the fabric of what the future will shape itself to be. Its all just a building block of bigger things to come, because we are never standing still, we are always moving forward. And in the end no matter how self absorbed and crazy it is, its still our society, it is exactly what we make of it, together as one.

So find inspiration in everything you do, because every move you make not only effects you, it also effects everyone around you. No matter how insignificant the actions might seem to you at the time, they just might in the future blossom into something life changing for somebody else somewhere further down the road. Somebody who you will never meet, but your idea will be theirs to do with as they please.

So just make sure that you leave something which will impact somebody else in a positive way, something that will move them forward towards a brighter future, a better tomorrow so that they remember a past that we can all be proud of. If you have a positive impact on somebody elses life, they will pass that on to the next person, and you will be immortal..

What?

And as I’m getting ready to post that, I read on the news that today is “National Depression Screening Day” Don’t get depressed, get inspired! :)

Recently I’ve had this problem that I’m not able to turn my brain off. I have always had a million thoughts running through my brain but I could seemingly shut them off at will. If I wanted to concentrate on a movie or a TV show, I would be able to focus on it and drown out whatever noise my brain was generating. Well, not anymore, and the scariest part is that I dont really want to stop it.

I’m sorry that this is all so self absorbed but I’m just trying to figure things out. And I have never had an outlet quite like this where I could post my thoughts and get feedback from people, having a blog is pretty cool. And as I’m writing this, I’m trying to use the writing as a way of figuring out this confusion, if I get feedback from somebody, I will love you, and if I don’t its still helpful to me if not to anyone else. So whether you’re reading this or not, I want to thank you for letting me have this outlet. Because if not for this place, right here right now, I would still be sitting here thinking about a million things at once at 4 in the morning. But this is like my filter for those thoughts, and its making me feel better just writing out, if that makes any sense. I don’t even know if I’m going to post this or not, we’ll see. I may talk a tough game, but I’m extremely nervous about how others will perceive my babble since writing is so important to me.

As you can probably tell, I can go on and on.. and on.. and on, but let me just try to figure out some sort of point to the entire thing and try to tie it together somehow. I think I have stimulated my brain to a point where it doesn’t want to shut off, and I dont want it to because I know I can turn it into something extremely productive instead of just staring at the TV like a zombie and getting nothing done. Because I’m at a point in my life where I’m not satisfied anymore with distracting myself with nonsense and letting the days pass me by. I want something more, I want to leave something positive behind that will maybe someday help others. But its tiny steps and this is just the beginning of my journey. Whether I go it alone, or if someone is by my side thats still to be determined. But either way, I know that I will reach my ultimate goal, which I don’t really know what it is yet..

Last paragraph I promise, I think? I attribute Twitter to stimulating me to the point of where I’m constantly trying to move forward, instead of sitting in place like I have done for most of my life. I learned thanks to all of you awesome people from reading your Tweets and talking to you, that I need to motivate myself and motivate others to better their lives. Twitter has helped me reach some sort of focus, and you are all a huge part of that, and I love you all for it. I have never had a blog, but I have taken my long posts to a certain forum where I was ridiculed and forced to fight to defend my words, but in a weird way I like that because it forced me to question myself and made me a strong person. But I have realized that I need to use my words to somehow motivate others not to waste their time sitting on their asses for as long as I have. This is the year I woke up, this is only the beginning and it sucks that I didn’t wake up sooner. But I know that I woke up right when I was supposed to apparently, and I’ll move forward from that..

In case youre wondering, this was my own twisted way of saying thanks to you all for waking me up and making this the best year of my entire life. I’ve realized that life is too short to hide who you are, and instead go out and do what you love no matter what anyone tries to tell you. Because you are in charge of your own destiny, and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. If they are, they’re just lying because its in their best interest to do so, not yours. Negativity is only a distraction, it can only slow you down. So stay positive and reach for your dreams no matter how far away they actually seem.

Well, that was so very satisfying, and its like I got a lot off my chest in this short period of time. Create post? Most definitely YES, as if you haven’t figured that part out yet, huh? Thanks for reading, if anyone was able to get through this. Maybe I can turn my brain off for a few and get some rest, feel free to tell me how crazy I am. Thanks! :)

Hey, thank you all for following me here, I’m flattered that you are interested in me and what I have to say, I cant thank everyone enough! :)

I know I promised that I would post every day but I’m just feeling way too scatterbrained at the moment. That’s why I could never really have a blog with just one theme because I like to talk about whatever is on my mind at that moment. But I have a few topics in mind that I’m working on and will post, so I hope that everyone stays tuned. I love you all!

Lets go Chicago 2016! :)

mish365:

Photo Day: Twenty-Three

My awesome new jersey ;)

Sometimes I feel that I must step outside of myself to be myself, and writing helps me do that. When I’m writing, I feel that if the whole world was crumbling all around me, I wouldn’t even notice. Writing is my ultimate comfort zone, I could start writing something and forget that this world even exists. I just live in that moment and write whatever comes out out of my heart at that very moment. So I say finally.. Finally I gave in and started a BLOG! And now I can share my true feelings with the world on a daily basis. Or what I hope will be a daily basis because truth be told, scheduling is not one of my strong suits, and people who know me for some period of time already know this all too well, but I will do my best!

So 4 people have joined my account and I love every single one of you for caring about some girl on this huge planet, still trying to find herself and her identity. I may talk a tough game but that’s just there to cover up my ultimate sensitivity and insecurity. Because the fact is, that I take every single tiny thing personally. I preach that not to take anything personally, especially online, but I do it anyway. I guess its time to start practicing what I preach! But when somebody crosses me or my friends or family, something takes over and I can’t be stopped. I will argue with them until we both pass out from exhaustion, I don’t give up, and I don’t back away from any challenge.

And this BLOG will be my ultimate challenge, we will find out how long I can keep your interest. But either way, I will continue to write because its the one thing in this world that I feel comes naturally to me, I can do it without even thinking, I can type out 5000 words seemingly during one brainstorm. This entry I wrote in about 15 minutes. Add the next 5 minutes that I will proofread and see how many typos I made so that’s 20 minutes. I hope you guys will be able to keep up with my rambling. Thank you so much for reading, I love you all more than words can even describe!

-Melanie

P.S. WOW! My very first real entry and “no misspellings found” :)

Hey, I want to thank all of my amazing Twitter friends for coming to see my tumblr!

Thanks to @MeriiZantiago for being my #1 super sweet friend!! :)

And I want to thank @Trishkaa an awesome girl who told me about this site!

I hope to see you all here soon!

And some tips on what I should do here would be great!! :)